Hello there. My name is Bethany, and this is my new little corner of the internet. I’ve blogged before, with little to no success of keeping up with it, but I decided now is as good a time as any to try again. What’s different this time? In my 41 years of life on this planet, I have had my fair share of ups and downs, and this year has been one of the most up and down yet.
I will warn you, I am not an optimist. I am definitely a glass is empty person, and I don’t think much will change that. Yes, I have people and things I love, and they bring me joy, but the vast majority of my life is filled with consequences of my actions, that are not at all positive.
However, this blog is not one to be all doom and gloom and act like there is no hope, because I have to believe there is. Otherwise, what’s the point?
What is the point?
I’ve asked that of myself a lot, in that I have done so many detrimental things to myself, my friends, and especially my family. I am crawling out of the wreckage, a bit injured, but determined to be better. I owe that to the people still in my life.
So what do I hope to gain from this? I hope that my stories reach someone who may be going through the same thing and need someone – anyone – to understand. Even a complete stranger on the internet. I hope that my experiences bring some sort of collective on the internet that truly believes, it will get better. Sometimes it has to get worse first. Sometimes you run out of freebies and have to atone. Sometimes you have to lose everything to get your head on straight. I hope, obviously, that none of us have lost everything, but if you have, I’m hanging on by my chewed off fingernails with you.
So, I hope someone reads this, and I hope it gives you something.
Bethany Writes 